Photographing War in Misurata 'There Were Four Times When I Could Have Died'
Two photojournalists, Tim Hetherington and Chris Hondros, were killed on Wednesday in the Libyan town of Misurata. Photographer Marcel Mettelsiefen spent eight days in the battleground city for SPIEGEL ONLINE. He describes the dangerous life of journalists in a war zone -- and what it's like to work in close proximity to death.
Misurata is a city where even photographers with lots of war-zone experience are having great difficulty doing their work. And nowhere is the danger greater than on Tripoli Street in the city center. Not so long ago, it was a place where people took care of their daily shopping. These days, it is a zone of death. It was on Tripoli Street on Wednesday that two of my colleagues lost their lives and two others were wounded. It was, I think, merely a question of time before something like that happened.
The Spanish photographer Guillermo Cervera, who was at the scene, told me how Tim Hetherington had died in his arms. He told me how bad the head wounds of Chris Hondros were. Guillermo said that the two were not felled by a rocket-propelled grenade attack, but by a fragmentation grenade. Michael Christopher Brown of the United States was wounded in the shoulder and chest. He had already been shot through the calf in Benghazi.
The conditions for photographers in the center of Misurata are almost indescribable. Every five minutes, a fragmentation grenade explodes. Gunfire comes from all directions. Snipers loyal to Libyan dictator Moammar Gadhafi are holed up in the houses on one side of the street. Rebel fighters are in the houses on the other side. I myself was on Tripoli Street on just a single occasion, for 30 minutes. Other colleagues have spent much more time there, despite the extreme risk of being hit. As happened to Tim Hetherington and Chris Hondros.
Crossing the Lines of Prudence
Many photographers, myself included, take such risks in the effort to capture the perfect image. We often cross the lines of prudence.
In battlegrounds like Misurata, we photographers are dependent on help from the rebels, who lead us through the city. Without their help, our freedom of movement is extremely limited. But the rebels also take us deep into the danger areas, because they want to show us the places where people are suffering the most. In some cases, we went too far for my liking, so that I would tell my companions to stop. Because I was, at the time, the only photographer in the city, it was easier.
But when one is traveling in a group, it can be advantageous, but it can also be a serious drawback. In a group of photographers, there is always someone who wants to go further, who wants to push the limits. And the others go along. Nobody wants to stay behind or show fear. It is a dynamic which can lead one to cross one's own boundaries. And in Misurata, there are no clear front lines. Death can come from anywhere, and it can target anyone.
In the eight days I have worked in Misurata, there have been four situations in which I could very well have become the victim. There were four times when I could have died. Two situations were particularly shocking:
- After Gadhafi troops bombed the press center, we found lodging in a hospital. We felt safe there. People there repeatedly mimicked the noise that an incoming grenade makes. Piiiuuuuuushshshshsh! It often was startling, and the others laughed. It happened several times. And then we heard the real thing. We were in the courtyard of an apartment complex in the battle zone. Children were playing, and we entered the building to set down some of our equipment. We heard a whistle and then three loud noises: boom, boom, drrrrshshshshsh. The children who we had been joking with just two minutes before were all dead. A fragmentation grenade. Such explosives detonate in the air and spread shrapnel -- sharp, hot metal which passes easily through human bodies. It was merely by chance that I was no longer in the courtyard when the grenade exploded.
- Another time, we were on the way to the harbor when a fragmentation grenade detonated 10 meters in front of us. It only barely missed the ambulance in front of us. Gadhafi's troops have become fond of targeting ambulances.
There is no such thing as complete safety for us photographers, that much is clear. But one has to set limits. In Misurata, I would venture forward a little more every day to the point when I was eventually only standing 10 meters from a house crawling with 30 pro-Gadhafi snipers. The rebels were adamant about bringing me into a nearby building so that I could get a better view. So we took off running. You have to run everywhere to dodge the snipers. All of a sudden, we were being shot at by both sides. That's when I thought: Now I've gone too far.
You ask yourself why you do this, why you are in this kind of situation even though you already set some limits. You ask yourself whether you will ultimately have the courage to respect these limits and pull back if things get too dangerous. When you start to get nervous, it is time to turn back.
I was happy when I got out of Misurata. On that kind of assignment, you are under an enormous amount of stress. But you only really notice it when you're not in the situation anymore and all the tension has faded.
It's like Haiti in 2004, when some colleagues and I stumbled into an ambush. There were eight of us, but only four of us made it out again with our lives. I saw a colleague shot down right in front of my eyes. It was a traumatic experience, and it actually convinced me that I wasn't going to do anything like that ever again. I started studying to become a doctor.
But somehow, I ended up just as I started: as a photographer in crisis zones.